quasi-girlfriend
NBM was a control freak.
he was used to women wanting him and making it clear to him when they did. when i refused to be his girlfriend, he called me his quasi-girlfriend instead.
when i was his quasi-girlfriend, he wanted to know me. when he finally broke me, he knew me too well and said things like "i don't want a girlfriend who...."
the more he knew me the more he realized how UNcontrollable i was, and i was no longer "girlfriend material" to him. so he ran and came back and then ran and came back again.
this is essentially the story of the last four quasi-relationships i've had.
when they become boys who i thought were men in pieces on my apartment floor, all i can do is feel bad for them. all i can do is watch them rue anything and everything they did to hurt me. all i can do is watch them wait for me to say it's okay, but my pride never lets me.
he was used to women wanting him and making it clear to him when they did. when i refused to be his girlfriend, he called me his quasi-girlfriend instead.
when i was his quasi-girlfriend, he wanted to know me. when he finally broke me, he knew me too well and said things like "i don't want a girlfriend who...."
the more he knew me the more he realized how UNcontrollable i was, and i was no longer "girlfriend material" to him. so he ran and came back and then ran and came back again.
this is essentially the story of the last four quasi-relationships i've had.
when they become boys who i thought were men in pieces on my apartment floor, all i can do is feel bad for them. all i can do is watch them rue anything and everything they did to hurt me. all i can do is watch them wait for me to say it's okay, but my pride never lets me.
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